Borderline humanity

Today, we are cautiously optimistic. Not necessarily optimistic about anything specific, like going out to my Valentine's dinner or something, just ever-so-slightly optimistic that I'm feeling better. I'm having some decent moments right about now, where I don't feel like barfing, haven't been having diarrhea, and other than a mild headache, things aren't too bad.

The feeling is actually so odd to me that I had to stop and think about it to figure out what it was!

And, of course, it could all chance in a heartbeat, hence all the caution. But I'll take what I can get!

A big victory for the day is that Lloyd is currently out picking up my new pain pills, after fun Medi-cal delay issue, so I don't have to worry about running out and going into withdrawls again. See, the stuff I was on has been discontinued--no one can get it anymore. So, we had to find something else, and submit all the stuff to Medi-Cal for approval. Nope....what Andy wanted to use wasn't on their formulary.

Sure, we could have paid cash for it...$750 for a month supply. No, that was not a typo. I have another pill, an anti-barf pill, which has a cash cost of over $550 for 12 pills. This shit is scary!

SO, Lorrie, Andy and I figured out another medicine that should do the job on my daily pain issues and keep me functional. In the meantime, while all of this was getting sorted out, I used some standard cheap Norco/Vicodin that we could pay cash for, but the problem with that is all the Tylenol in it. That's why we have such an issue in the long term--finding a med that isn't mixed with Tylenol or something so I don't end up with major liver or lung problems from all that aceteminophin.

My life is never boring.
Hopefully, getting this new stuff will mean that I can relax for a while. It's hard to work on the recuperating when I'm having to stress over getting the right meds and worrying that I might run out before the government approves my new stuff. Having the Medi-Cal coverage is a godsend, but understanding it takes a lot more brainpower than I have!

Let's all just hope for a continued march toward feeling human....onward....